Perspective

I'm so happy.

It's amazing how quickly attitudes can change.  I have been so content lately.  Since I've been on a break from school I've been becoming more and more the person I feel like I should be.  If I'm cliche, I'll call it the real me.  I hate to think that school is holding me back so much, or that I can only be the person I want to be when I'm free of responsibility.  That makes me sound like a) I'm in the wrong line of work, and/or b) I can't be myself if I have something else to do.

I've been surprised lately by Shreveport and how many things it has that I never thought to look for.  In fact, they pretty much found me.  Like the city is begging me to stay.  In the past 6 weeks, I've found minicine, some beautiful antique stores, some truly amazing local boutiques/restaurants, plus the weather has been so so nice.  I have been finding myself thinking "oh, living in the south isn't so bad I guess."  It's ridiculous.  I don't guess you would know, but I have always hated living here in the armpit of the US.  Humidity is my mortal enemy--it amplifies the weather, ruins your hair/makeup/general health of your skin, and is a staple of huge bug habitats.  Also, alligators like it.  But they're not so bad I guess.

I was supposed to spend this break focusing on where I will be when I leave Shreveport, but instead I got a lot more cozy here.  I love the house I live in, the neighborhood is goodnotgreat, and really I don't mind being near my families.  The only real reason I have to leave is my career, which we've already discussed might not be so great after all.