I Wrote This The Other Day

If I could do all of the things I want to do, I would do things like get up early on Saturday mornings and hit up garage sales.  I would find such awesome things, I just know it.  But I would give myself a budget by only bringing -so- much cash with me and not even my debit card to go to an ATM if I saw something really cool.  Like I could have a jar by my front door where I put random change and sometimes dollars you know just whatever was in my pockets when I got home from being wherever.  Then I could use that money at the end of the month to spend on a garage sale shopping spree.  Also included in that could be trips to goodwill and maybe frozen yogurt/smoothies.

I want to know what I’m going to be doing with my life next year.  I want to know where I’ll be and if I’ll be happy.  I want to know what my options are.  I need to be able to sit down and think about those things and know the factors that will come into play so I can put the pieces together.  I don’t like depending on someone else for answers—I don’t want that to end up being what I do.  I also don’t want to provide answers for someone else.  I want to be able to do what I need to do and not feel bad about it.

If I could do all of the things I wanted to do, I would take lots of classes because I think the only way I would make myself do things is if I was getting a grade for them even if the grade didn’t matter for anything.  I would take classes on seamstressing (lol), pottery, drawing, painting (!), quiltmaking, crocheting, dancing, singing, playing guitar, playing piano, playing drums, more singing, more piano, both of them together if I could, and another one on costumemaking.  Maybe hatmaking, if that’s a class all by itself.  I want to know how to do things!  Like photography, how could I forget that one?!

Also I think maybe I would have more friends if I moved somewhere else.  If I were alone and forced to hang out in places that were unfamiliar I would basically have to make friends to survive.  And my survival instincts are pretty strong, for my age.